MY STORY

I grew up watching Disney films where the prince rescues the princess. In the 80's and  90's there were no LGBTQ+ materials to read or look at. I didnt realise it was ok to be atracted to girls it was a very confusing time in my head and often quite a lonely place to be. This eventually led me down a path of "boys" although I had 'experiences" with girls, i eventually married an abusive man whom I had two children with. Once i was stuck there i could remember my dads voice saying "you made your bed now lie in it." Of course he had no idea of the abuse we were all suffering.

My parents came to my rescue and helped us to learn to live as a single-parent family with a mortgage and bills to pay. We went through various counseling sessions and healed together slowly. Although i had autoimmune diseases to contend with also which made life difficult. After twelve years i had to sell my house as part of the divorce so i decided to move back to my dads home town one of the reasons to be closer to my parents.

Around this time i found the most amazing coach and EFT Practitioner Dana Williams from Canada who helped me to get my life back. I was so poorly i could not walk up stairs i had a stair lift fitted into my house. I was on so much medication i could barley function. We worked through my childhood and adult trauma using Tapping, it worked so well i came off most of my medication and could walk stairs again and exercise. I then trained in EFT myself later to help my clients as its such powerful tool to use with amazing results. My life proves this. 

After a year of living in our new house i had a really spiritual experience. I heard Gods voice over a period of six weeks asking me to go back to a Baptist church i attended in my early teens. I really did not want to as i did not like christians i found them to be hypocrites. I also knew they did not support the lgbtq community so that scared me. I finally went to church after calling my good friend/old bible study teacher to take me. She was delighted! i myself was dreading it seeing an old stuffy minister preaching! When i got there the minister and his wife were young with tattoos. Three weeks later i had an encounter with Jesus coming out of my fireplace transferring so much love into me and saying he has work for me to do. I said Ok! I got Baptised and the church really felt like a beautiful family, although they didn’t know i was hiding part of myself at that time.

It took me a few months to tell the minister my next relationship would be with a women i did not find men attractive and I’m ready to live my life authentically. I asked tearfully would i still be able to part of the church? He was really kind to me and supported me, we became good friends. I slowly told my family and i was really blessed to be accepted for who i am. A year after being in church a queer person showed up who i was attracted to. We got to now each other and started a relationship i was so happy and we fell in love. 

Unfortunately when some of the congregation found out we were together in a queer relationship  they made it clear i was not welcome. I was crushed, broken and had to walk away from my church family. I had never felt pain like this. 

I began to search for safe lgbtq christian churches and organisations on line. I made many new friends and found support during lock down when everything went on line. I joined an organisation that helps queer christians connect. I was asked if i would lead groups for people “coming out” for ten weeks with a program. I absolutely love volunteering my time connecting with queer people helping them to build a foundation and identity. I have been volunteering my time for four years now. 

I still keep in touch with some of the lovey accepting people from the congregation although i do not attend that church anymore. I am blessed to have many friends and family members that support me and my partner. We are planning our wedding which our family members and friends are excited to share with us. I have found a church that is inclusive, i now run a worship evening there where everyone is welcomed and loved. I love the work i do with my beautiful clients I am living my life unapologetically gay and doing it my way. Helping people to live their life their way too!